Showing posts with label goals. Show all posts
Showing posts with label goals. Show all posts

Sunday, August 16, 2026

[Bio] Apparently Marketable in Norway

I was aimlessly scrolling my Gmail account a couple of weeks ago when I noticed a suspicious notification from LinkedIn. I usually don’t check the LinkedIn emails because they are mostly spams and/or one of those seemingly AI-like posts that are quite absurd and rather stupid. But this one email really caught my attention. I read it, raised my eyebrow, and then immediately looked up whether it was a scam. And when it was clear that the message I received was not from a pretend-company and that the person who sent me the message through LinkedIn was a legitimate person, working for a legitimate company and representing their Norwegian subsidiary, I lost my mind.

It is not a stretch that I just stared at my laptop screen for quite some time, with my mouth agape and sometimes whispering, ‘What the f*ck’, to myself, totally disbelieving what I just read. I wanted to scream to the world and to tell everyone I know who would care to listen that my bachelor’s degree and my work experience are plausibly transferable in Norway. And even though the former was already recognized by HK-Dir as equivalent to a Norwegian bachelor’s degree, an ‘invite’ from an actual Norwegian employer from the mining sector ultimately sealed the deal for me.

And yep, this was big for me. I have been really insecure about my job prospects in Norway ever since I got married to my husband. I have no Master’s degree and I know how difficult it is to get a job in my sector without having one here in the West where everyone has one. In my head, I already accepted the fact that I needed that master’s degree to matter in the job market here. I was already imagining how I have to take on odd or non-related jobs, not that they’re menial or below me, in order to earn money here. That the absolute rule was Master’s first and then I can practice. But I actually forgot one thing. I seemingly disregarded the fact that I am not some new undergraduate that doesn’t have any experience in my field at all. I have some actual real life skills and practices that make me marketable here in Norway too.

I told my husband immediately and he was actually very much ecstatic about it. Being ‘headhunted’ in Norway felt like a fever dream and I told him over and over again that although this is actually ‘something’, we shouldn’t make a big deal out of it. It is not a done deal after all because I have to do the application and the interviews too. And so I opened the hiring page of the company and saw for the first time the qualifications for the job. I immediately panicked.

The thing is, I absolutely can do the job with a workable learning curve. Everything is transferable if you already have prior experience with something. But then there was the required amount of experience. And then I saw the Norwegian proficiency that they require. On top of that, they need someone with a valid driver’s license. I also have a personal but temporary caveat that I have to disclose to the employers first and foremost. It was one after another and it really made me doubt myself if I even had to bother submitting my application for this position.

I did the crazy thing and messaged the recruiter to ask if she was sure I am actually qualified for the position and if I should really apply. She messaged that I should and that she was excited to go through my application once submitted. And so, I painstakingly curated a CV and application letter for this position and sent them.

It has been two weeks since the day I received that email that led me to that message on LinkedIn. A lot of things have already transpired since then. Aside from the two screening interviews that I did with the recruiter, I also got one informal call with the ‘chief’. That latter call woke me up from my slumber and was an introductory welcome to how recruitment is done here in Norway (and apparently in some parts of the EU as per one of my friends). I found out more about the job, the current situation in the location, the pay and all the perks that come with it.

The opportunity on its own is very exciting. It’s one of those ‘critical’ projects that a young professional aspires to partake in because they can gain a lot of experience from it that will probably set them up for life. The location is very exciting and I am always down to move places and explore more while I don’t have children yet. Aside from all that, I have been thinking how nice it would be to earn more than what my husband is making. This is not going to be an easy feat in the long run because he’s a psychologist here in Norway who is already working on his specialization. At the moment, he’s already earning more than the average annual salary here.

But yeah, nothing is set in stone yet. It feels like a Schrödinger's cat moment for me to be honest. I am always finding myself imagining two lives simultaneously: one with me staying in Bergen and going through my original plans for myself and the other one where my husband and I uproot our lives and start a whole new adventure somewhere else. Both seem to be net neutral and only time would tell what the outcomes are.


Wednesday, March 31, 2021

[Life Blog] Update on my Application

 Okay.

So, I did not get in.

Well, I just did not get the scholarship but I got an academic acceptance. Still feels the same though because without the scholarship, I wouldn't be able to get there even after working for 10-15 years or so.

Of course, the announcement was met with disappointment and tears were shed. I think that was just a normal reaction when you really put all your expectation towards something. On the other hand, what's really funny was me stressing out on my possible thesis if I ever got it days before the announcement of results. I was really unprepared and all in all, I had a motivation that is not aligned with the program. For the most part, I was uninformed. My focus was only on one thing, forgetting the other important factor.

It was a truly humbling experience, not gonna lie. I also kinda expected that I wouldn't be able to get it because of my wrong priorities during that time that I submitted it. But, this is just a minor setback, of course, I will rise again from this experience. This is truly not soul crushing, rather, it just gives me more determination to strive harder to achieve my dreams. I know that I am meant for something great and it doesn't matter how long I would get it as long as I am working for it.

I am also indebted and grateful for all the people who helped me along the way. I've met some people who did not hesitate to help and cheer for me, even inspiring me and telling me about failures then the eventual success stories. There are at least 6-7 people who I contacted and gladly offered their support and help. I honestly want to make them proud in the next round. 

I also realized more how I am lucky to be with my boyfriend, he's such a sweetheart. He's so caring and acts as my primary support system in all of my struggles. I sometimes feel that I don't deserve him and whenever I would tell him that, he would just say that I don't get to decide who he deserves to be with nor who's deserving of his love. Haha.

So, for now, I'm just gonna prepare for the next submission. I can't wait to learn new things and explore my profession. It will definitely payoff.

Ciao.




Monday, March 29, 2021

[Life Blog] APRIL, please, be kind to me!

 Okay.

April is almost here and my God, I am really getting anxious. I can't wait for it to come and to be over at the same time.

I am really hoping that I would be hearing some good news really soon. OMG!

Bye.

Friday, March 26, 2021

[Life Blog] The Waiting and How I am Getting Anxious

 Okay.

As of now, I can't say what I am actually waiting for but man, I am anxious to know the result. I am having this habit of counting down the days (it's now between 6 days the earliest to 20 days the latest) before everything is 'revealed'. My future depends on this thing that I am waiting for and I am trying to manifest this shit out. 

I feel like, with all of the things that I am going through right now, I deserve IT. With my professional background, I am aligned to this cause. Although one of my 'credential' is not that sterling to say the least, the letter that I submitted and my references are a-okay. Every time I feel so nervous about the uncertainty of the thing that I am waiting for, I always read my motivation letter for it. I try to remember how much I want it and why I deserve it. I try to look back why I've chosen to apply for it.

In reality, I greatly admire and strongly feel for the cause. It is something that I envisioned for myself: not just developing and learning things to earn money but actually making a difference for the society and for the good of the environment. I greatly believe that I am here in this world to do something worthwhile, a noble purpose if I might add. I'm not just here to exist and work for something that I don't believe in so that I can put a roof over my head and have something to put on the table.

I am rambling, just like always. But I can't help it because I am really anxious about this. I really want it so bad and I know that if I do get it, I will do good and excel. This would also mean a lot of things to my resume and LIFE IN GENERAL as it would get me closer to achieving a higher education. I would really want to get an MSc and a PhD but those things cost a lot of money. Coming from a low income household, with both parents not being able to get a college degree and with people around me (even relatives, mind you!) betting that I won't be able to get a degree because we're poor, there's a really strong pressure inside me to keep beating the odds. I've done it once when I finished my bachelor's in Geology and twice when I passed the board exam with just one take. I want to add to this 'list'. I want to make something out of my life despite what others has been telling me since the very beginning and step on all the rude and unkind prophecies. I exist to succeed and that's what I'm gonna do.

Reading what I've written here, it surprises me somehow that I can be positive. The constant negative comments from people around me really affected my self esteem but I really need to move past that.

Phew. Writing because I am nervous is really something. I have to take a shower now.




Tuesday, March 23, 2021

[Life Blog] Job Hunting is Hell

 Okay.

I guess I just have to put that title as an exaggerated observation even when I don't really think that that's the case for real. Sure, it can be difficult sometimes but I feel like for the most part, I am being very picky.

Let's just say that I am looking for jobs OUTSIDE of the Philippines and of course, that would be extra difficult especially if you have no money or even that fucking UMID. Me being hired almost immediately after graduation, then just changing jobs just after losing the last one less than a week before made me so incapable of applying rigorously. I feel like it has been served to me quite easy. Sure, the job that I got were not really that good but unlike others, I did not actually have to wait on for months to get a new one.

But I am getting tired of this. I just want to get a job that I actually would love and enjoy. Something I can be passionate about. I just don't want to dive in to the next 'best thing' there is. I want to heightened my standards because I am now seeing the results of my poor choices back then. I chose to be comfortable and lazy so here I am, unhappy and at my wit's end.

I want to be a part of an organization that actually makes a difference, something that change the world. It would be environment-related, with coworkers sharing the same mindset of protecting the earth as much as we can and being chill and peaceful in every aspect of the job. Haha. I can work on an NGO, it doesn't really matter if it's not offering a lot of money but seriously, I want to use my degree and my knowledge for the common good.

I am really tired of existing and working just for money. Fuck this shit.

Friday, March 19, 2021

[Life Blog] Driving: You Need it!

 Okay.

I don't have a car and if I am being honest, I feel like I won't afford to have one even in the foreseeable future. Despite this, I feel like having a license and being able to actually drive properly is an asset for any grown-ass person nowadays.

Not gonna lie, I sometimes see job postings now which requires people to have a driving license and with this, if you're not able to drive, you can be robbed off with the chance of attaining your dream job. 

Anyway, I'm just writing in order to share some reviewers for the TDC in here. I will have three classes for this and not gonna lie, I've looked into some of its 'reviewers' and I am really surprised by the fact that there's still so much to learn about traffic signs despite me basically seeing it every single day.

I just hope that I won't be a negligent driver in the future. I am always afraid of losing my life (or taking away someone else's as well) because of my irresponsibility and errors. Kinda morbid but I don't want that. That's just stupid.

Anyways, here are the reviewers. Might be uploading more later.

Traffic Signs

Professional License Reviewer

Non-Professional License Reviewer

Tuesday, March 16, 2021

[Life Blog] Teeth and Braces

Okay.

I finally got my braces when the year started. I gave in (again, finally!) to the pressure of having a better smile. My teeth are not that bad but it's not as good as those of my family members. I've not been teased about it when I was younger but still, I think I would be more confident to smile brighter if they are fix.

I am just writing this because of how amaze I am to see the changes in under two months. I already got one of my teeth extracted on the upper jaw and I am seeing how my teeth are slowly moving. The tooth beside my canine (first premolar according to the photo below) on the right side was removed last Friday, March 12, and now I am already seeing (and feeling) a noticeable gap between my canine and the lateral incisor.



As for the teeth on my lower jaw, I don't know if my dentist (which is an aunt as well) would extract teeth in there because she's still have to remove another tooth on the left upper jaw(the first premolar there) next month. I am also already noticing though that a tooth on the left which is slightly slanting is already a little bit 'standing' up.

Sure, it's painful. ALL THE FUCKING TIME. But it's like a dull pain that's always there and you'll learn to get used to it. Not gonna lie, I thought I would not be able to eat properly for like a week or so but, newsflash, I was still able to do so. I happened to ate a lot just after two days of it being 'installed'. It's just a little bit of challenging but I think me slowly eating my food is also another good experience for me. I am now able to enjoy it and not eat it all at once. Haha.

Right now, I am just having a hard time chewing on the right side because my canine tooth is being pulled towards my second premolar. There's a pulling pressure there all the time and I am quite paranoid that these two will just break at some point, if I chew hard enough.

I chose this. I have to live with the pain. Haha. But I know it's gonna be worth it.

Tschuss. 


Sunday, March 14, 2021

[Life Blog] Office Chronicles: Toxic Workplace

It's been quite a while since the last time I wrote in here. Not gonna lie, times are tough and with the number of cases rising again, I feel like an eventual lockdown will happen in the very near future.

In my current workplace, in just a span of 6 months, I've seen a lot of people leave the company behind and finally breathing and living a much more relaxing life. I've seen brilliant men leave the company before even realizing their full potential just because of a micromanager and a couple of his heartless henchmen. I've seen a couple of people who had some serious breakdown and some who just decided to stop caring. A good friend of mine also left just recently and I feel a pang of sadness deep within me. I am of course happy for him but I feel like our friendship is one of the reason I am still able to face the daily challenges of this job.

Of course, I am looking for a new job. I won't say that I am very active on the job market right now but I send out application left and right, maybe not as frequent as I like. To tell you honestly, I am still waiting for something to happen between April 1-15 or later. I am waiting for a very important result, the reason why I can't just quit and move on from this.

It is a struggle. Daily, I have to muster all the strength within me to attend even the daily meetings at 8am. I don't see any reason for it, to have a daily follow-up meeting when we don't even have updates on the daily (since I am on permitting). It's just too tiresome that every hour seems to be monitored at all time, a thing that I don't appreciate since I am someone who really do my job properly. It feels like they don't trust me and that's really lowering my morale.

Most recently, I had to talk twice to our HR representative since I felt attacked by the highest person in my current team. Can you imagine? He wants me to act like the overall supervisor of my team, to claim all responsibilities and failures, to face repercussions of unmet deadlines and to answer to all the intradepartmental issues even WITHOUT a proper appointment and monetary compensation. I feel so lost in all of these since his audacity really surprised me; to just assumed that I would take the responsibility just because he said so.

I made clear to our HR that I am not happy with these and I feel like it is stupid to just say to someone, "I don't have many horses in the stable. I need you to do this," even without the proper instructions and again, the proper pay. I mean, I don't really work JUST for money but I am being paid peanuts here, I am on forced leave during Fridays (but they expect me as well to reply to them at all times, even threatening us that if he calls us, we should respond, no matter what time it is). Sure, he's my boss but that only accounts for my 7-6:30 pm job from Mondays to Fridays (I do a 48-hour shift, weekly). He doesn't own my life. Periodt.

Because of my refusal against his wishes and me going to the HR for my concerns (who talked to him), I am hearing that they plan to dissolve my unit. I actually don't mind. My unit is so shitty anyways since I have to picked up the sloppy works of the previous permitting team. My Senior Ops Manager, (who also resigned, btw), told me that they planned to transfer me to another unit because apparently, I have no ambitions or whatsoever to lead the team. AGAIN, I can and I would if you pay me the right price.

It's bad enough that this company pays useless people huge amounts of money but refuses to compensate those who actually do the job. I have two officemates who basically do nothing but both of their salaries are between 50-70k and I have this another officemate who just casually turnover job after another job to our Projects Team just because she feels like they can deal with the customer better. Oh, I forgot to mention, they are the After-Service Team. That's basically their job, to deal with the clients after the Project is done.

I am really hoping for a positive result for the thing that I am currently waiting. I feel like I have a fat chance of getting this and I am really manifesting that I am getting it already. My boyfriend already heard his. He's doing some internship in India for three months between September to December. I hope that I'll get mine as well.

I am calling out to the universe right now. Manifesting this shit out.


Peace y'all.

Sunday, January 17, 2021

[Life Blog] Additional Places on my Travel List

Earlier today, my boyfriend and I looked at German cities because of the video I've sent him last night [I'm studying German and people are saying that I can learn the language better if I watch shows in that language. It's difficult to understand it most of the time because they are talking so fast but I am proud of myself when I can understand sentences they are saying there]. I really want to add more places in here for example:

8. Baden-Baden

Funny story. Even though I don't really know much about German nobility and how their divided states worked back then, what really amuses me was their long 'House names' [nobilities don't really have surnames but they have the House Names; usually, it's where they come from, the state that they rule or the prior surname of the founder of their Houses]. Germans have a penchant for long-ass words. I remembered giving all my sims the House Name of Brunswick-Wolfenbüttel, Baden, Saxe-Cobourg-Gotha, etc. 

As mentioned, Baden is one of those long-ass names that I usually give to my sims. Funny that I never knew how lovely this place is.

Source: https://www.civitatis.com/en/strasbourg/baden-baden-day-trip/



9. Munich

I don't really know why but when I was younger, every time Germany is mentioned, the first thing that comes to mind is Munich. Frankfurt comes second and neither of this Städte is not even the capital of Germany. I keep on researching it online, looking at places to visit there and I probably wanted to study there at one point.

My boyfriend said that the living cost there is insane. It's one of the expensive cities in Germany. OH. ALMOST FORGOT, OKTOBERFEST!

Source: https://www.britannica.com/place/Munich-Bavaria-Germany


10. Salzburg, Austria

AUSTRIAAAAAA! This is the country where Marie Antoinette was born! Anyway, the seat of the Holy Roman Empire back then was in Vienna but Salzburg has a really beautiful court too. 

BUT....that's not the main reason why I want to go to Salzburg. I want to go there because I am looking for a painting of Margaret Theresa of Spain. Sources sometimes say that this favorite painting of mine is in Vienna but I don't know YET. I just have to find out.

I just think that she's really uniquely beautiful and has a very tragic love story. I sometimes dream about her. I'm not weird though.

Source: https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Margaret_Theresa_of_Spain#/media/File:Margarita_Teresa_of_Spain.jpg


Source: https://www.salzburg.info/en/sights/top10



11. Abeerdeen, Scotland

Okay, don't judge me for this. HAHAHA. When I was younger, I pick up a book from my mom's collection which really intrigued me back then. This might sound mean but the book is of course in English. Since I was so stupidly ignorant (albeit young), I was so surprised because in my mind, my mom is not a strong reader and speaker of this language.

Anyway, out of curiosity, I read this book entitled, "A Gentle Feuding". Already enamored by the idea of a 'highland' and then finding out about the 'rugged and handsome highland lairds' this book really got me hooked up with the idea of Scotland. The main female protagonist, Sheena Fergusson, has thick, dark red hair. This is where I started loving that hair color (obsess with painting red-haired girls), need I say more.

Source: https://www.tripadvisor.com.ph/Attractions-g186487-Activities-Aberdeen_Aberdeenshire_Scotland.html


12. Queen Eleanor's Cross and the grave of Katherine of Aragon [England]

Perhaps, one of the greatest love story of all time that I've read is between the great King Edward I and his first wife, Queen Eleanor of Castille. You know, reading about royal marriages kinda disappoint you after the long run since most of them are dynastic marriages and because of this nature, they are often just cordial and/or unfaithful. There are only several marriages among royal couples that are actually described as 'loving' or 'close' and this is one of them.

Anyone who's a history buff would know who Edward I of England was. He was the king who annexed Wales to the English crown [he beaten up the Welsh!] and hammered the Scots in the North. Despite being a strong and courageous king (also lucky!), he's also known for his love to his wife. When she died, he ordered stone crosses to be erected at each stopping place on their journey back to London.

I want to see one. Periodt.

ALSO, Katherine of Aragon is perhaps my favorite princess of all time. I cannot tell you how many times I've read The Constant Princess by Philippa Gregory and all other materials about her that I could find. For me, she's the real definition of a Renaissance Princess. Learned, well-breed and well-educated, she's not like any high-born princess during her time. Which is not really surprising since her father was the inspo of The Prince by Machiavelli. Her mother was the famous Isabella of Castille who was a queen in her own right which was highly unusual during those times.

This is getting too long. Haha. Well, I still believe that this woman was the real Queen of England until her death. I want to give respect to her.

13. Norway [the whole country is amazing but I won't add photos in here because it's full of mountains. I am a weird geologist because I'm scared to look at photos of mountains]

Northern lights and Lofoten. Periodt.


Will probably add some more in the future. It's really getting late.

Good night.